[::..LoT n Lots of things 2 say....::]
Well last wednesday,I did catch a movie with my 'blood' and Syafiq..We watch King Kong at Jurong Point..The story was interesting..It touched my heart..I can't belief it,I cried upon watching its ending..
I did jog on last saturday at Chinese Garden with Arif..I felt weak,I am useless..I only completed 2 freaking rounds..I need 2 built up my stamina..I need time..
Then I go swimming at Jurong east swimming complex with my sisters..
As soon as I reach home,I was exhausted...
On Sunday,apparently I don't celebrate Christmas so Arif thought of a place we never been 2gether..He suggested West Coast park..I agree as its been a long time since I gone there..We did have fun..The place was filled with laughter and screaming of kids..As soon as I reached home,nobody was home,so I turned the TV on..There's alot of my favourite films or stories indeed..I enjoy watching Princess Diaries and 'Hanyut'..As I watched engrossly,my parents come home..Guess what??????SURPRISED!!!!!!!!!!! My Dad hand me a box with a grin..It's an mp3!! I was over the moon..My wish was granted..Yeah2!!!!!!!!
loner_freaky - 5:48 PM
Monday, December 19, 2005
[::..Arif..::]
This is just the beginning
I did get promoted
But that was nothing
I felt more disappointed
I kept worrying
for Arif and my friends
Majority were shocked about the "thing"
We hope 4 the best
Unfrtunately,hopes and dreams were broken into pieces
Some tears of enjoyment and some were disappointment
Like thete's some kind of a curse
All we knew that we were going on different pavements
It breaks my heart
2 c Arif,like this
He kept criticizing himself,as his dreams fell apart
He was pressured and oh please.......
Who can ever survive in critism and dreadful sermons?
I have faith in him
He can prove them wrong - 'the demons'
May he be happy as he always seem
loner_freaky - 9:34 AM
Friday, December 16, 2005
[::..What the hell ?!..::]
My B-dae was a mth ago,but my parents have not celebrated it yet..they are 2 bz and they can't afford or they dun wanna buy the present i asked 4..All I wanted was 2 b happy n that little thing-mp3...
Luckily,I receive presents from my siblings and Arif..there's a limit 2 my patience..
What the hell ?!
I've been waiting
They can't tell
That I'm hurting
Deep inside,I cried
Still hoping
But I try 2 hide
my feeling.......
loner_freaky - 7:25 AM
Thursday, December 08, 2005
[::..F_C_K_D - T_B #//#!*#@..::]
I'm from a broken home
My real Dad was lazy
I felt all alone
Till now I don't understand what's the meaning of a happy family
My mum married again
So she will feel loved and cared
She thought that will lessen her burden
And she won't be mad
I never blame her
I know she's trying very hard
Whatever she did,she still my mother..
Unfortunately,it all fell apart
She never listen
She still remain stingy and unreasonable
She's very stubborn
However outsiders always thought that she's capable
I can't hate her
All I need 2 do is
Play my part as a daughter
That's the least
Well I have endured and suffer
Deep inside I'm hurting
Who would even bother
Even if I'm crying
Still hoping for happiness
Wait and bleed
In this life of darkness
Where I was born 2 lead...
My real Dad was lazy
I felt all alone
Till now I don't understand what's the meaning of a happy family
My mum married again
So she will feel loved and cared
She thought that will lessen her burden
And she won't be mad
I never blame her
I know she's trying very hard
Whatever she did,she still my mother..
Unfortunately,it all fell apart
She never listen
She still remain stingy and unreasonable
She's very stubborn
However outsiders always thought that she's capable
I can't hate her
All I need 2 do is
Play my part as a daughter
That's the least
Well I have endured and suffer
Deep inside I'm hurting
Who would even bother
Even if I'm crying
Still hoping for happiness
Wait and bleed
In this life of darkness
Where I was born 2 lead...
loner_freaky - 8:19 PM
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
[::..He = Arif..::]
He is quite good-looking
He is sometimes adorable
He is my everything
He is also quite capable
He is unique and rare
He is the best
He is always there 2 listen and care
He gave me everything more not less
He never tried 2 change me
He love me since last 3 years
He love me dearly
That just matters...
He is sometimes adorable
He is my everything
He is also quite capable
He is unique and rare
He is the best
He is always there 2 listen and care
He gave me everything more not less
He never tried 2 change me
He love me since last 3 years
He love me dearly
That just matters...
loner_freaky - 6:21 PM
[::..MY BLOOD = A SPECIAL FREN = EIM..::]
He understands me
He is funny
He is my closest guy friend
I won't want this 2 end
We did have some heated argument
But everything happen with a reason
We never fell apart
Because we are close as heart 2 heart
We accept one another past
I wish this frienship last..
DON'T EVER LET ME FEEL DOWN AGAIN
I HATE 2 FEEL PAIN..
He is funny
He is my closest guy friend
I won't want this 2 end
We did have some heated argument
But everything happen with a reason
We never fell apart
Because we are close as heart 2 heart
We accept one another past
I wish this frienship last..
DON'T EVER LET ME FEEL DOWN AGAIN
I HATE 2 FEEL PAIN..
loner_freaky - 9:14 AM
[::..FILLED WITH ENVY & HATRED!!!!..::]
Just leave my boyfriend alone
He's now mine
But u still chat long hours with him on the phone
I can tell and I'm not blind
You can't accept the fact that now he belongs to me
You got no right
I HATE YOU AND YOUR FILTHY PERSONALITY
But I got my pride and I won't fight
You criticize me behind my back
You think u are so cool?
I feel like giving you a tite slap
Guess what?U are totally uncool and act just like a fool
You are just jealous,he came back 2 me
You don't deserve him..
2 him,u are SLUTTY
AND I'm not as easy looking,as I seem..
FUCK-OFF BITCH !!!
He's now mine
But u still chat long hours with him on the phone
I can tell and I'm not blind
You can't accept the fact that now he belongs to me
You got no right
I HATE YOU AND YOUR FILTHY PERSONALITY
But I got my pride and I won't fight
You criticize me behind my back
You think u are so cool?
I feel like giving you a tite slap
Guess what?U are totally uncool and act just like a fool
You are just jealous,he came back 2 me
You don't deserve him..
2 him,u are SLUTTY
AND I'm not as easy looking,as I seem..
FUCK-OFF BITCH !!!
loner_freaky - 8:48 AM
Friday, December 02, 2005
[::..ReGreT & ......::]
I feel my heart beat raising
I do sense my regret
Thanks for this "Happy Ending"
I will never forget
What we did was totally filthy
I am filled with sin
Deep inside I am hurting badly
What's happening??
I just wait n bleed
4 resons n answers
I was dumb indeed
To let myself suffer
I seek 4giveness
2 THE ALMIGHTY
Please save me from this emptiness
And I shall obey and agree..
I do sense my regret
Thanks for this "Happy Ending"
I will never forget
What we did was totally filthy
I am filled with sin
Deep inside I am hurting badly
What's happening??
I just wait n bleed
4 resons n answers
I was dumb indeed
To let myself suffer
I seek 4giveness
2 THE ALMIGHTY
Please save me from this emptiness
And I shall obey and agree..
loner_freaky - 11:00 PM
[::..Just 4 Arif....::]
You've done alot 4 me
I felt so indebted
I really love u dearly
Your efforts are apparently appreaciated
You not only give me happiness
But everything a girlfriend would wish 4
Without u,my life will be meaningless
I won't ask 4 more
I DON'T KNOW how 2 THANK U
I felt that im quite useless
There's nothing more I can do
But i will never let u feel emptiness..
I felt so indebted
I really love u dearly
Your efforts are apparently appreaciated
You not only give me happiness
But everything a girlfriend would wish 4
Without u,my life will be meaningless
I won't ask 4 more
I DON'T KNOW how 2 THANK U
I felt that im quite useless
There's nothing more I can do
But i will never let u feel emptiness..
loner_freaky - 10:48 PM