[::..you you n more you !!!..::]
DON'T SHUT ME UP !!
You have no right
I'M ALREADY FUCKED -TUB!!
I refuse to fight........
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JUST LET ME GO
Free me from your hell
YOU ARE MY FOE
I don't need to tell......
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NEVER CROSS MY PATH
I repeat ; I hated it
YOU JUST LAUGH
Oh...........Dammit !!!!!!!!!
loner_freaky - 9:34 PM
[::..Dedicated to my latest ex - ARIF..::]
Memories rush into my head
Remembering about the past
When I was still,his stead
However,it doesn't last.
What I meant was,its over
It will not do us any good,
If we are together
As more things I then brood.
I admit its my fault
I declare I'm a loser
This will forever be a dot
A dot that marked me as a liar.
I told him,I will never leave him
I told him I will always be there
Now its just seem
That I don't even care
All of a sudden,my feelings fade
Peeps won't understand
As I've broken the promises,I made
Hence,Its complicated to comprehend .
No amount of apologies
Will make you befriend me
You won't accept my sorries
As your priority is your dignity..
_____________________________________
HATE ME FOR ALL i CARE
Act as if I was never there
PRETEND THAT YOU DARE
To face the reality that's unfair............
loner_freaky - 2:58 AM
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
[::..?????!!!!!!!!!!!..::]
Just a typical day
My worries stay
Yet boredom haunts me
Trying to escape readily
I tried very hard
Everything torn apart
Am I to blame?
AND he got the fame..
Don't look at me that way
I did not lead astray
______________________________
I know what I'm doing
JUST LEAVE ME ALONE ..
Don't pretend that you care
WHEN YOU WEREN'T THERE !!
I hate you
GET OUT OF MY FACE
you can be replace
JUST FUCK-OFF !!!
stop buggin me....................
loner_freaky - 1:25 AM
Monday, March 27, 2006
[::..SORRY........................::]
Guilt and remorse filled me
What I did was due to insanity
I owe Arif,millions of apology
Even that,he will remain crazy
It's my fucking fault
I let him wait and rot
I cannot control my feelings
My heart hid some things
I assume I got over Adam
Indeed,I was calm
However Adam return,
I then learnt
That we can change the way we feel
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I LET HIM DOWN
time and again
WHAT I DID
cause him pain
I LOVE HIM
I love him too
I JUST DON'T KNOW
what to do...
loner_freaky - 2:18 AM
Friday, March 24, 2006
[::..anti-_______(NOT A POEM)..::]
Living in this beautiful country
Politicions are our best buddy
I am totally happy to study
Our education system is the best really
Let's talk about other countries
Wars are challenging indeed
People just wait and bleed
Bombs and Deaths are increasing
Where's their humane thinking?
loner_freaky - 11:06 PM
Close your eyes
relax and breathe
No more cries
Energy is retrieve
Whenever I stress
I did this
Just a rest
A minit at least
Believe me when I said
As I did stressed alot
I felt that,I'm better off dead
However,fret not
Stress can be a positive effect
The more you think,
The better you act
At times,you do sink
As in you felt like drowning in stress
Majority went through it
However,who cares?
Just fuck the damn shit!!
loner_freaky - 10:40 PM
[::..A middle Finger just 4 u..::]
Listen to me
Aren't you happy
Leave me there waiting
Deeply freaking hoping
I thought you would be there
However,you just don't care
Where's your promise
Vanished in the mist?
My love gone waste
I'm still in a daze
I will never trust you again
I will end up in fucking pain
Where's your explanation?
Don't play with the silence
All you did was blame me
I am ill-treated badly
I want to be exonerate
Is this some kind of fate??
loner_freaky - 4:12 AM
Monday, March 20, 2006
[::..skooL *#@^%..::]
1 week of March holiday gone so fast .. It was suck indeed .. We were given tonnes of assignments and we need to attend 3 lessons .. L.A.M.E right ?
Haix .. That's School life .. SUCK BIG TIME , FELT F_C_ED TUB and OUTCAST !!!
I'm not being such an EMO freak here but look around,isn't that crystal clear??Majority are STRESSING in silence..Minority are very WELL-GRADED..
It's DAMN BLOODY true..
loner_freaky - 1:05 AM
[::..DiSaPp0InTmEnT.........::]
Give me the strength
give me the power to persevere
Extend it to some length
Then give me an answer to my prayer..
I waited,I cried
I can no longer endure
I knew I have tried
This feeling have no cure..
I felt so useless
My self-esteem is decreasing
Is this a curse?
A curse with no ending??
PLEASE,let me be me
No hindrance and suffocation
All I want is to be happy
Not filled me with such disappointment :(
loner_freaky - 12:54 AM
Sunday, March 12, 2006
[::..studies VS lover..::]
Sorry Dear for making u depressed
Its my fault 2 let the matter rest
I know you are still mad at me
As all I want is to study..
I chose 2 sort of leave you
However,I still don't know what to do
Its been years,we are together
Will our relationship be better?..
I will be totally crestfallen
If we are apart with no definite reason
I never want 2 leave you
I really love you;my boo..
I'm still confused,dilemma got the better of me
Please show me some answers,I wanna be happy..
loner_freaky - 6:28 PM
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
[::..F_C_K_R !!!! @#^% *..::]
I felt an arrow pierced to my heart
After listening to some critism
Done by someone whose gone nuts
He thinks he is the bez and awesome..
The fact is he's just some boy in school
He is nothing but a sensitive freak
He is totally boring and uncool
To put in easier,he's just a total gig!!
FUCKING ASS HOLE !!!!!!!!!!!
loner_freaky - 1:50 AM
Thursday, March 02, 2006
[::..PERSEVERANCE..::]
I guess I should keep on trying
I believe strongly in my instinct
Being a failure,I learnt
To be more determined and less defiant.
I have not succeed
I will still try,even if I did.
Overwhelming by some ups and downs
As if I'm struggling not to drown.
I did a bit of self reflection
I made a conclusion
As I know,failure is NEVER final
And success is never ending..
loner_freaky - 11:41 PM