[::..I don't understand u ....::]
I CAN ROT WAITING FOR YOUR CALLS AND MESSAGES . I CAN BLEED UPON UR BROKEN PROMISES . I CAN CRY WHEN YOU TOLD ME ' i still love u ' .. IF U DO CARE , WHY YOU WASN'T THERE ? YOUR REASON IS 'i'm busy syg , you do understand rite ?' .. AAAARRGGHH ! I'M SICK OF FEELING SINGLE WHEN I KNOW I'M YOURS .. YOU CAN'T BLAME ME IF 'KID' EMBRACE AND HOLD ME .. I GO TO HIM FOR COMFORT AND A PLACE FOR ME TO VOICE OUT MY UNHAPPINESS .. DAMN !! ASRAN , I LEFT ASRANI AND ALL THE OTHER GUYS I WAS INVOLVED WITH JUST FOR U .. IF YOU ARE HERE I WON'T BE LIKE THIS ..'KID' knows me since sec 2 n he's my best guy fren other other than my blood - eim .......
loner_freaky - 7:21 PM
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Time won't heal
even then
The real ME reveal
and when
I cry n bleed
Don't stop ME
Please have a seat
Beside ME
We'll shed blood together
Rejoicing the pain that
lingers and won't go away ..
If I say 'go away'
Will you say no ?
AND tell me you'll stay ??
loner_freaky - 2:29 AM
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
BLEED ME
MAKE ME CRY
KILL ME
DON'T ASK ME WHY ..
JUST END MY BLOODY MISERY
OR
CHOOSE TO LOVE ME ?
loner_freaky - 11:58 PM
Friday, August 18, 2006
MY LAST SENTENCE STILL HANGING IN THE AIR ......
YOUR PRESENCE STILL LINGERS THERE ....
I LEARNT THAT EVERYTHINGS UNFAIR ...
I BELIEVE I'M FORCED TO BEAR ..
BLEED ME DRY
LET ME CRY
BID GOODBYE
I'LL TRY
PULL THE TRIGGER
END MY FEAR
I DUN WANT U HERE
JUST CHOKE ME WITH LIQUOR
OR AT LEAST A BEER ..
I NEED A FREN , I NEED SOME TABLETS
TO DEPEND AND SPIT ME SOME WORDS ...
WILL YOU BE THERE FOR ME ??
YOUR PRESENCE STILL LINGERS THERE ....
I LEARNT THAT EVERYTHINGS UNFAIR ...
I BELIEVE I'M FORCED TO BEAR ..
BLEED ME DRY
LET ME CRY
BID GOODBYE
I'LL TRY
PULL THE TRIGGER
END MY FEAR
I DUN WANT U HERE
JUST CHOKE ME WITH LIQUOR
OR AT LEAST A BEER ..
I NEED A FREN , I NEED SOME TABLETS
TO DEPEND AND SPIT ME SOME WORDS ...
WILL YOU BE THERE FOR ME ??
loner_freaky - 8:21 PM
Sunday, August 13, 2006
[::..How ??..::]
1ST B.F - ASRAN .
An is a 21 yr old guy . he lives at either Bishan or Tampines due to the divorce thingy ! He dress like an emo - typed . He sings well , seriously no kidding ! He plays guitar , keyboard and violin . He had his advanced diploma . Now he's serving his NS , high rank ! He had his motor license unfortunately no motorbike . He's friendly . He's short yet he has musles that are proportionate . He have passion for arts , he's in an art school but have not completed NAFA ( National academy of fine arts ) He's handsome and adorable ..
2ND B.F - ASRANI
As is 16 yrs old . He lives at Boon Lay . He dress like a matrep ( malay gangster ) . He appreciates the songs I listens to . He WAS a punk . He plays drum ,and knows little about guitar .. He have the sense of humour and he's easy-going .He's tall and look like an ang-moh . He's protective , loving , caring and understanding . He's far more matured for his age . He's not ignorant . He plays soccer .
An is a 21 yr old guy . he lives at either Bishan or Tampines due to the divorce thingy ! He dress like an emo - typed . He sings well , seriously no kidding ! He plays guitar , keyboard and violin . He had his advanced diploma . Now he's serving his NS , high rank ! He had his motor license unfortunately no motorbike . He's friendly . He's short yet he has musles that are proportionate . He have passion for arts , he's in an art school but have not completed NAFA ( National academy of fine arts ) He's handsome and adorable ..
2ND B.F - ASRANI
As is 16 yrs old . He lives at Boon Lay . He dress like a matrep ( malay gangster ) . He appreciates the songs I listens to . He WAS a punk . He plays drum ,and knows little about guitar .. He have the sense of humour and he's easy-going .He's tall and look like an ang-moh . He's protective , loving , caring and understanding . He's far more matured for his age . He's not ignorant . He plays soccer .
loner_freaky - 4:12 AM
[::..What's happening to my love life ??..::]
What have I got myself into ? I'm stucked between two guys . I love both but I dun deny I love An more .. This started when my 1st b.f , An was being ignorant and still is . That's where my 2nd b.f entered my life . We met at esplanade . I was a lil drunk after drinking Heineken with Fir . However I was still conscious and knew what happened around me . I was left alone when I decided to leave a bunch of my friends including this one son-of-a bitch ! He criticised saying that I looked like an alien . I'm waiting for his presence . Just wait u fatty arse ! Therefore I left w/o a word .. Damn ! I make my way back to esplanade SEARCHING for a face that probably I WOULD recogniseD . I saw some of my schoolmates , introduce myself to the rest and met As , my 2nd b.f .. We talked and I took his no. Bla3 , Dadedada , We are now together albeit he knew about An .. I've met his momma , I suppose she's the coOlest mum .. Hence HERE I AM ..
loner_freaky - 3:38 AM
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
I'M SORRY THAT I LIED , I KNOW I DID TRIED TO MAKE YOU GLAD BUT SOMEHOW YOU MAKE ME FEEL SO BAD ..
YOU TREATED ME LIKE A PUPPET ON A STRING , LIKE A DOLL ..
ITS ALWAYS ME WHO LISTENS TO YOU . ITS MAKING ME SICK ..
I FELT SO SINFUL THANKS TO YOU ..
RESPECT ME . PLEASE ...
I WILL NEVER LET YOU GO , YOU KNOW THAT ..BUT
ITS HURTING ME BOTH PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY ..
* DON'T TELL ME TO DO IT AGAIN .. PLEEASE ..(!_!)
YOU TREATED ME LIKE A PUPPET ON A STRING , LIKE A DOLL ..
ITS ALWAYS ME WHO LISTENS TO YOU . ITS MAKING ME SICK ..
I FELT SO SINFUL THANKS TO YOU ..
RESPECT ME . PLEASE ...
I WILL NEVER LET YOU GO , YOU KNOW THAT ..BUT
ITS HURTING ME BOTH PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY ..
* DON'T TELL ME TO DO IT AGAIN .. PLEEASE ..(!_!)
loner_freaky - 9:13 PM
Saturday, August 05, 2006
I'm afraid of making friends yet I do it again .. I know I dun make sense but friends do cause me pain .. One by one left me right after they met me .. Some say I'm too weird for them .. Some say they fear of getting hurt as they are bound to fall for me so they make a choice to end the frindship .. Some hate my wearing and my ways .. I did my best to show who I realy am rather than hlet my flaws be hidden .. Damn , I really love them as a friend and now everything had come to an end ..
__________________________________________________________________
Why do you have to leave ?
Now Its hard for me to breathe ..
In the darkness , I lay
Crying due to the self I potray ..
Is it me or is it u ?
Is this suppose to be true ?
Disappointment I endure
The pain had no cure ..
__________________________________________________________________
Why do you have to leave ?
Now Its hard for me to breathe ..
In the darkness , I lay
Crying due to the self I potray ..
Is it me or is it u ?
Is this suppose to be true ?
Disappointment I endure
The pain had no cure ..
loner_freaky - 7:02 PM
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
TO THE GIRLS WHO HATE ME BUT DO NOT HAVE THE GUTS TO TELL ME DIRECTLY !!!Grow a brain in that tiny skull of yours before I smashed your head .. I know you don't have the strength to retaliate because you are such a bimbotic whore ! Damn ! Don't give me your bitchy look ! It just irks me .. stop it fucking slut ! You know you are such a hypocrite .. Quit acting like you're so gorgeous and fame is all it matters .. eeww seeing you make me puke .. Bluek ! If you hold a grudge on me , why not look me in the eye and spit some vulgaritives at me ? Why you go around whispering and creating gossips about me to other people ? Apparently I was right , you had nothing better to do . you love seeing people get victimised emotionally .. Guess what ? it doesn't hurts me at all ! so much for your efforts .. Plain dumb ..
loner_freaky - 2:19 AM