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loner_freaky - 3:38 AM
[::..-MiSSing u-..::]
I've waited for an answer
God listens to my prayer
Missing you like no other
Apparently I've been here..
A day w/o you
Feels like I'm losing you
Silence came into rescue
Wondering if u miss me too ?
God listens to my prayer
Missing you like no other
Apparently I've been here..
A day w/o you
Feels like I'm losing you
Silence came into rescue
Wondering if u miss me too ?
loner_freaky - 3:26 AM
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
I'm not dead yet .. I'm here becuse I miss my bloggy .. I miss comments n compliments from people .. Well its been quite awhile .. Loving and hurting someone or the other way round is inevitable in my life dictionary .. I shall not rake about the past .. Just gotta move on .. Existantance still have to go on ..
I'm currently attached with an Indonesian guy .. He's adorable , quite handsome , unique , physically inclined , interesting personality and notorious typed of guy .. Its been nearly 2 mths now .. HOPEFULLY everything gonna be fine ..
I'm working at COFFEE CLUB , the finest freshly brewed coffee u ever tasted .. try our coffee club classic .. COFFEE CLUB is not popular just for its coffee but incluuding the food and other beverages they served .. try their main courses or their snack and light bites or even their desserts .. Mouth watering and there's an absolute pleasure having every single bite that will melt in your mouth .. delicious .. I'm working in IMM btw ..
I guess I'll update when I miss u , bloggy ..
I'm currently attached with an Indonesian guy .. He's adorable , quite handsome , unique , physically inclined , interesting personality and notorious typed of guy .. Its been nearly 2 mths now .. HOPEFULLY everything gonna be fine ..
I'm working at COFFEE CLUB , the finest freshly brewed coffee u ever tasted .. try our coffee club classic .. COFFEE CLUB is not popular just for its coffee but incluuding the food and other beverages they served .. try their main courses or their snack and light bites or even their desserts .. Mouth watering and there's an absolute pleasure having every single bite that will melt in your mouth .. delicious .. I'm working in IMM btw ..
I guess I'll update when I miss u , bloggy ..
loner_freaky - 8:54 AM
Monday, October 30, 2006
[::..I'M BACK !!..::]
Hello people .. I'm back after all these weeks of mourning .. He's literally dead but I'm still alive and kicking so is this blog of mine .. Its been a roller coaster ride for me for the past silence I gave it up to u people .. Yeah I'm still looking for my Mr Right and I'm still figuring whats the meaning of Life and Happiness .. Too bad .. I'm still bored ..
NO MORE BLEEDING
NO MORE TREMBLING
SO MUCH OF THOSE CRIES
TO LET YOUR PRESENCE DIES ..
A BROKEN SMILE I FRAME
EVENTHOUGH I TOOK THE BLAME
TIME AND AGAIN
IT STILL REMAIN ..
Last words I engrave
on the ring u gave
memories of u and me
will forever be treasure till eternity ......
loner_freaky - 11:24 PM
Sunday, September 24, 2006
In the silence
I stood and cried
I did my best
To put everything aside
But his name
still recite ..
I miss his voice
I miss his smile
I miss his laughter
I miss his touch
I miss his hug
I miss his kiss
I miss his motivation
I miss his critism
iss the time when he sings to me
I miss the time when he carried me
I miss the time when I fell asleep in him arms .
I miss the time when he make me cry
I miss the time when he said 'I'm sorry '
I miss the time when he said 'I'll do my best '..
I LOVE YOU , Asran ..
I really do ..
I dunno how I can breathe
Without you ..
I MISS YOU DARLING ..
I CAN'T CONTROL MYSELF ..
I cant move on but I'll try
what can be said to be with you again ??
I stood and cried
I did my best
To put everything aside
But his name
still recite ..
I miss his voice
I miss his smile
I miss his laughter
I miss his touch
I miss his hug
I miss his kiss
I miss his motivation
I miss his critism
iss the time when he sings to me
I miss the time when he carried me
I miss the time when I fell asleep in him arms .
I miss the time when he make me cry
I miss the time when he said 'I'm sorry '
I miss the time when he said 'I'll do my best '..
I LOVE YOU , Asran ..
I really do ..
I dunno how I can breathe
Without you ..
I MISS YOU DARLING ..
I CAN'T CONTROL MYSELF ..
I cant move on but I'll try
what can be said to be with you again ??
loner_freaky - 11:58 PM
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
[::..probably my last entry ......::]
I've been tryig to focus . I've been trying to please everyone . guess what ? its damn tiring ! I just wish , I could be myself .. potray my identity like I want to .. .. Right Now I need medicine and painkillers to wash this agony away ..
He was once there
showered me with love and care
But FATE and DESTINY is unfair
This heartbreak , I'm force to bear .
Just memories are left behind
I've seen it , I have it all rewind
WHY ? Love was so unkind ?
Or is it me whose blind ?
I was naive and foolish indeed
For him , I try to bleed
For him , I rather weep
To avoid making him sick .
I was too nice
I've made the sacrifice
I had enough of his lies
I'm tired of our MERE 'goodbyes' .
He gave me empty promises
Our LOVE was like a curse
My brain cells are about to burst
But then again , HE was my FUCKING first .
Why he have to make me feel this way?
Loving me then led me astray
I'm NOT freaking OKAY
I know I'll move on someday .
Despite the shits he poured on me ,
I still do miss him badly
In my eyes , he still the one and only
However , he's just my HISTORY .
I don't need to remember
THAT I'm NOT his bloody lover
WE are not like WE were
Everything had to end HERE !!
loner_freaky - 7:39 PM
Saturday, September 09, 2006
123
Please be with me
45
Don't say you'll try
678
You, I shall wait
910
I will love you till the end ..
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To my fellows , this will be my last entry for the next few months .. I need to work my butts off for the Os .. take care !
Please be with me
45
Don't say you'll try
678
You, I shall wait
910
I will love you till the end ..
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To my fellows , this will be my last entry for the next few months .. I need to work my butts off for the Os .. take care !
loner_freaky - 12:37 AM
Saturday, September 02, 2006
When the clock stop ticking
When the trees stop growing
When my lungs stop breathing
That's when our love is dying ..
Upon the million tears I've cried
You know I did fucking tried
To be the best and I have fight
To last our relationship and your pride ..
However I don't sense your care
Just your ignorance and its unfair
Am I suppose to endure and bear
My heart you rip and tear ?
When the trees stop growing
When my lungs stop breathing
That's when our love is dying ..
Upon the million tears I've cried
You know I did fucking tried
To be the best and I have fight
To last our relationship and your pride ..
However I don't sense your care
Just your ignorance and its unfair
Am I suppose to endure and bear
My heart you rip and tear ?
loner_freaky - 2:49 AM