[::..probably my last entry ......::]
I've been tryig to focus . I've been trying to please everyone . guess what ? its damn tiring ! I just wish , I could be myself .. potray my identity like I want to .. .. Right Now I need medicine and painkillers to wash this agony away ..
He was once there
showered me with love and care
But FATE and DESTINY is unfair
This heartbreak , I'm force to bear .
Just memories are left behind
I've seen it , I have it all rewind
WHY ? Love was so unkind ?
Or is it me whose blind ?
I was naive and foolish indeed
For him , I try to bleed
For him , I rather weep
To avoid making him sick .
I was too nice
I've made the sacrifice
I had enough of his lies
I'm tired of our MERE 'goodbyes' .
He gave me empty promises
Our LOVE was like a curse
My brain cells are about to burst
But then again , HE was my FUCKING first .
Why he have to make me feel this way?
Loving me then led me astray
I'm NOT freaking OKAY
I know I'll move on someday .
Despite the shits he poured on me ,
I still do miss him badly
In my eyes , he still the one and only
However , he's just my HISTORY .
I don't need to remember
THAT I'm NOT his bloody lover
WE are not like WE were
Everything had to end HERE !!
loner_freaky - 7:39 PM